May 12th 2011 – Lost a Little
I’ve lost my way a little bit when it comes to posts. I just didn’t have the desire to post or keep up with this. I feel like mostly this is part to it being the month of May.
May brings Mothers Day and Mothers Day breaks my heart. I find myself lost in a wave emotion that is hard to break out of way. A lot of times I don’t even notice that I’m stuck until something heavy hits me. Let’s just say that I hit a very big brick wall and absolutely cracked. I haven’t felt like that in a very long time. I’m starting to find the light in dark situations. Looking for where to find strength from.
I’ve finally found what I’ve been looking for. Aaron. He gives me the support when I need it and knows when to give me space. He really showed me how wonderful he is when he put everything aside for me when I needed him most. I do love him. He fixes everything, emotionally and within the gym. I want to be better and stronger for him. As much as I love setting goals and crushing them, there’s nothing more I want then to just make him proud.
I’ve been finding this extra drive lately in the gym, this little push to go further and harder. I’ve been taking advantage of it. Hitting PRs all over the place. I’m not scared anymore, I’m just going for things. Big things are coming, just wait and see.
Hey Aaron – I know you’re reading this. Thank you for all that you do everyday. You’re everything to me. I love you more and more everyday.