Why I Do What I Do… What Motivates Me
I used to work out in lieu of others and what I thought everyone else expected of me. I wanted to be that athletic looking girl that everyone else envied. At one point I was. I had my head on my shoulders, great shape, worked out religiously. Although I looked the way I wanted to, I did it for all the wrong reasons.
4 years ago my mom was diagnosed with cancer and I completely stopped everything. I let myself go. I stopped skating, playing rugby, the gym, everything. I focused 100% of my attention on my work and my family, none on me. With my mom going through treatments and everything she gained weight real fast. She went from a solid 150# frame to a large 300#+. Near the end of her battle, her body was too large for her heart to continue to pump blood and ultimately she passed away. Mom passed away July 30 2008 and it took me 2 years to snap back into reality. The 2 years without her took a toll on me. I was a 19 year old with no mom and felt alone. I let my body suffer, I lost myself for 4 years and racked on an additional 40#.
So, here we are. After this ordeal I am terrified of being over weight and out of shape. I clicked back into reality July of 2010 and went to a gym and got a trainer. Colin was a life changer. He worked me to my limits and beyond. I sweat, cried, threw up, and I grew up. I developed a strong relationship with him and did whatever he told me to do. I made huge improvements with him. Then he moved to Australia 😦
Shortly before Colin left I met Aaron. Aaron instantly became one of my best friends and I love him dearly. He introduced me to the world cross fit and I was instantly hooked. Aaron is continually by my side helping to coach me and improve me. He helps me with my work out programs and my diet lifestyles. He helps make me want to be better. I wouldn’t be in the position I am today without him.
Aaron motivates me. He’s a very strong, well rounded athlete. I admire the dedication he takes towards his diet and workouts. I wish to be half that dedicated. I want to be the strong amazing girl that he deserves. I will get there.
My dad – he’s my saving grace. I’d be so lost without that man. I don’t even have words to describe how amazing he is.
Long story summed up. I have the ability to do so much with my body and I don’t want it to go to waste. I want to be healthy and live a long full life. I have myself in the position where I have what I need and the support to get to where I want to be. Not only has this turned into a process of wanting to be healthy and strong, it’s now a process of learning to love myself and being happy with who I am. I’m excited to follow other peoples journeys and to help and support where I can.